Mostly everything is just the same. Blondie sasying that he wants to talk, but then never does. Orion saying that he is always there for me, but never is.

So instead i try and fill up my days with other stuff. It's not as satisfying as a friendship or relationship, but at least it keeps me occupied.

I've decided that i'm going to go for my CCNA, hard work - but yet another thing that will keep me occupied, and will give me more options.

See, despite what Blondie says about me being miserable all the time, and doing nother - it's not true. Why this year alone, i've joined a choir, and a roller derby team. started swimming and made friends with tatman. It just so happens that none of it really takes away the lonliness, but at least i'm doing something.