More thoughts

I really will never be that young bride that i always longed to be. But on the other hand, having been on my own for such a long time, I don't take having someone for granted and I am aware that we all have our foibles and failings, and I accept them, but try to work on them too, as I truly long to be a better person.
And I really appreciate having someone in my life.
I have so much love to give, I don't think that I was meant to be alone.
I find it hard these days to come home to an empty house.
On the other hand it motivates me to do work on the house, four bags of rubbish cleared today! The more I throw away the lighter I feel.

March thoughts

In a branch and hearing "don't dream it's over". I'm reminded of happy times. I wish those times were every day. I know that i should treasure them even more, but being without them just makes it more painful.

Feeling quite tired and lonely at the moment. Plans for this week gone awry, being sent to a different branch at very little notice. and doing completely different work to that which was expected.

I'm off to the gym tonight, i'm slowly getting there. Keeping busy helps, as it gets me to stay away from food. I'm also trying to be tidy. My goal for this weekend is to empty the boxes and stuff which are in front of one of my bookcases. It'll give me some much needed room!

I also want to lose weight so i can buy nice clothes, i'm starting to take more interest in them again.

My goal is to get to 14 stone by the end of april I feel that this is an achievable target. A couple of pounds a week should see me there. I am (hopefully) going away on holiday, but if i am disciplined all will be well. This year is going to be the year i change everything.

It's one of those days where the phrase that I recall from "Jamaica Inn" is so apt:"a hard, bright day". It's sunny, but bitterly cold. And annoyingly I forgot my gloves. It's days like this when my spirits are lifted by the sun!