To take my mind off things i am teaching myself to crochet. This is so positve, and so much fun. I love using thick yarn as it works up so quickly, and doesn't take long before i have created something!

I am a selfish girl at times. I must try and be more patient and understanding. Not to ask for things I shouldn't have, and to be self-sufficient. I get so lonely though. I am definitely a person who needs another person of their very own.

I have bought a Garmin. After signing up for geocaching many many years ago, i finally got around to doing it. Initally with my iphone app, one weekend when D was working and found it to be a good way to go out and get fresh air and a bit of exercise.

I enjoyed it so much that i had to buy a dedicated GPS system! The iphone app is briliant, but drains my battery so that a day out geocaching with it was simply not possible.

At lunchtime i'm hoping to try and use it for a bit and see if i can get it to work. I figure that whatever happens with my life, i will always find things to do to keep me occupied and engaged. I cannot currently skate, due to work, and i am not in the mood to complete my OU degree, and am in need of fresh air. So, geocaching fits the bill.

I look back and see so many changes, some for the good and some not. I think i know now who told someone about my writing, as now they ignore me. Or maybe i am just paranoid. Still, maybe it's best to just leave alone and move on. I am more mellow than i used to be, but still not quite there. Something i must work on.