Well, i had a very weird weekend. The end result of which is that Orion is no longer speaking to me, and i think thats for the best. I cannot handle someone who tells met hat they are done with life, but then when i phone them they shout that they are busy and slam the phone down.

I don't need that in my life anymore.

The sad part for me, is that when i met Orion, I ended up ruining my own relationship with Blondie. I am truly sad about that, and I know that it cannot be salvaged. I wish it could, but it's not what he wants. My fervent hope is that he ends up happy, but as Orion even now keeps dumping him, and then saying he wants him - it must be a very up and down sort of experience for Blondie. But it's one that I just cannot be a part of anymore.

I do feel lonely, as I don't have any close friends, but i shall work on it. I went to a BBQ at the house of one of the girls from choir on Saturday. She seems really nice, but as she has a partner i am wary of trying to become better friends.

But you know what? It was really nice just chilling out in her back garden, and talking in a proper, adult fashion.

Sunday i had skating, and i managed for a little while to keep up with the slower pack! I also managed a good few laps round on "skate til you puke" which means i clearly wasn't skating as fast as i could go, so now i need to push myself further. Something that will be easier in well-fitting skates i think. So i am making some progress!

Sunday a small elite part of the choir sand for the GOC. The audience was very appreciative, and we chatted with a few of the younger guys til nearly 11:45! One of them should be coming for a drink with us tomorrow (I gave him my number to text me, i didn't want to be pushy and make it th other way around), but after this weeken i am looking forward to making new friends. People who won't fuck with my head and play games.