And yet again if I had a little family I couldn't just go off and do things.
Which do I want more?

Could be going on an adventure next weekend. How exciting! It was just the thing I needed to cheer me up.
Focusing in travel and adventure Takes my mind off feeling poorly and sitting here alone.
Speshly since another old school friend had another baby.
Makes my heart hurt.

Still feeling very poorly and wishing I had someone to look after me :-(
I feel as if every day is a struggle. I don't want to be alone.

I feel tired and cranky. I want to be taken care of.

Another tv programme and another young bride. What can I replace this dream with?

Weather

As is per usual for February we had more snow. What was pretty in December is now annoying. I long for the spring and the warmer weather.
I need another holiday, somewhere to warm my bones.

I sit and listen to women all day long talk about how they treat their other halves. How one will only allow her boyfriend to shave once a week. Tells him that they can't go on holiday. Calls him several times a day.

Washing machine had a blip today and as a result my kitchen Floor is wet and cold. I hate it when things like this happen. I feel tired and lonely. Like I am always struggling on alone. I don't want that.

Feeling a bit low today. Lonely. I think i'm over things, and then this wave comes over me that i will never be a young bride, or have a little family of my own. i'll probably never be a wife, or have someone to share my life with. What can i do to fill my days instead...?