Despite having to put a hundred pounds on a credit card to part pay for my car service last month, i hope to finally get rid of one of my cards next month. I had hoped to be debt-free (not including mortgage!) by March next year, but because of the hundred this has now had to slip to April. Still, it's quite close! I am slowly learning about proper budgeting, the fact that i don't pay my bt and water bill by monthly direct debit rather caught me out this month, so as of next month i am going to put a little aside into an account, so that when the quarterly bills for these come around, I can pay them straight away with ease. Then i guess the thing that really knocks me back is my car bills. I need to learn how to budget for these as they are usually a few hundred pounds.

I cannot wait til April. I guess the money that goes on credit cards could go part way towards car bills, and maybe part towards a holiday. After all, i haven't had a holiday since 1999! I think. Not a proper holiday anyway. A couple of weekends away, but i would love to be normal. SAdly that isn't going to happen. I mean a normal holiday with a boyfriend and you go somewhere hot and sunny for a week...i don't know.

I don't have any OU Fees for this month or December, so that goes straight for christmas presents. Which is good, because it means i'm not struggling. I am slowly, so very slowly getting my life sorted.

I still feel rather knocked for six. Tired. I haven't done anything for the past few weekends because of feeling ill, but i feel i shoudl go out and do something. Get some culture maybe.

As I was feeling better this weekend, I started on my application for the civil service. I am ok with the verbal tests, but the maths was a bit beyond me., I have until next Sunday to do them for real, so I am going to mug up a bit on the maths side. I've been looking at the BBC's GCSE site, and this has been useful. I wish the civil service website would let you do multiple practice runs, but it doesn't. Wish me luck!

I think i'm also going to have to do something with this website. The link between blogger and my hosting company - well there is something wrong. I think it's the hosting company set up. So i'm going to have to either try and find another hosting company, or use space provided by my isp, or something else. Don't worry i'll keep you posted as to where i go.

I'll probably get rid of a load of the rubbish that is on this site, but is not me anymore.

The exam didn't go so well. I hope i passed, but i guess there are always resits and i would be more prepared for how exams go.

I thinjk i also started getting ill on the Friday, and Saturday and Sunday i just flopped about. I know i had a fever, and i didn't go itno work on Monday. I went in Tuesday but i felt like a piece of cooked spaghetti so went home and just lay on my sofa all afternoon.

Fortunately now i am feeling much better, and have energy again!

In part of my on-off quest to try and catch up with people i was friendly with at school, i googled the name of the boy i had my very first date with. Needless to say i had to ask him out, as well, no guy has ever asked me out!

He was a nice enough guy, and i knew him through the joint choral soc between my school and the boys school.

I am absolutely devasted to find out that someone with his name (which is a very rare name) died in 2001. There is the very strong possibilty that it was him as he was described as being musical, which fits in exactly with him.

Although it was so long ago, it just seems so sad.