I haven't really felt much like writing. With fathers day on Sunday, work not going so well and that guy i liked... well I haven't felt like i had much enthusiasm to write about my sad and pathetic life.

I did go dancing last night.

Yet another guy i liked suddenly has a gf. I am a little upset but keep

telling myself that he obviously wasn't the one for me... i do wonder

just how long i can keep telling myself this.

I liked him a lot, but never felt like i could tell him about all the

bad things that have happened. Maybe that's a sign.

I am part way through tma05. A bit of a struggle as i am not 100%

certain that i am answering the question. But i am now going to see this

through.

I had Monday off work, and now have a door on my study, and a cat

flap! Charlie ran off in fear Monday evening, so Tuesday i draped it in

ham, and offered him tasty treats. He wasn't interested. So instead i

strung the flap open and eventually curiousity overcame him and he stuck

his nose through the flap and jumped out. I left it open all night and i

think he must have gone in and out. I woke around 4 and realised that he

wasn't on my bed, so went downstairs expecting to see him outside unable

to get in, but he was just sitting around in the dining area (not that i

have a dining table...) and jumped outside through the flap again.

I have left it open today, so that he gets used to it, and then i'm

going to try it with the flap down. I don't think he likes the flapping

noise.

It is a sad day for the city of Birmingham. Someone has vandalised the bull .

Ceroc was good last night, one new move and some practice of some older moves. I felt that it was quite easy, and one of the taxi dancers said i really should go into the intermediate class next week. I definately will as i am eager to learn some new moves! I made a friend too. A guy on his first night there called Wayne. Sadly Kat fans, he has a GF, but he was a really nice guy and it's nice to have someone to chat to, closer to my age.

I stayed even later than normal and as a consequence didn't get to bed til nearly midnight. I am really stuggling today, i can see that i need to get a lot of sleep to catch up.

I did my hundred words by writing the introduction. I'm still not convinced I am doing this correctly though....

Tonight it's Ceroc, so no studying apart from reading Offprints. These are very long academic articles. Some of which are interesting, a lot of which include chunks of greek which i don't understand. Oh well.

Charlie is outside today, i hope he will be OK. I cannot wait until Monday when the cat flap can be fitted. Then all i have to do is teach him how to use it!

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The Birmingham Wheel

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Originally uploaded by smallkat.

This is actually the reflection of the Birmingham Wheel in the ICC!

Somebody has fleas. That cost me 40 quid. Some for the flea treatment, some for the consulation and some for the anti-inflammitory injection.

As my new contacts have come through and i have to pay 90 quid for them, this is very worrying. With that 150 quid it wouldn't have been a problem, as i was expecting the contacts and have nicely budgeted for them. Without that 150 quid it all goes to pot.

I did some research and planning for tma05 - i quite literally have no clues about Athenian wealth, so i am going to do 300 words of made up rubbish and hope that this weekends tutorial will enlighten me.

Sunbathing

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I've just signed up with flickr, and this is my first attempt. This was taken around 9am one Saturday morning. It was sunny and Charlie decided to sunbathe on my picnic blanket.

Last night i found something strange near charlies neck. It looked like part of the hair had gone and the skin underneath looked very raw and red. I'm hoping that it's not fleas. I have a suspicion that may have been stung. He doesn't appear to be in any discomfort unless i press my hand near the mark, nevertheless i am going to try and take him to the vets tonight. If not, i'm going to leave work early tomorow.

I don't feel so good. I am not getting enough sleep, and it's taking it's toll. I have to start my tma05 essay plan tonight, read some off-prints and get to bed before 10:30. I have decided.

Saturday i was out with Joolz. i wanted an evening out, but she wasn't interested. So we went into Solihull during the day instead.

The gym confirmed that they can't get my refund done any sooner, so i am just hoping that on the 15th, it will be there in my account. So frustrating.

Going through my email at work, i just found a comment from a reader about cat food. Sorry to have not found it sooner. It was about getting Charlie dry food instead of wet. It is defiantely a thought. He does eat dry (as an ocassional treat as the normal stuff is energy dense), and particularly now it's getting warmer, i am not happy with leving wet food down all day for him. I know you can buy "light" dry food, so i think i might start swopping him over to it. The water that he would need to drink in addition would be good for him, i know he doesn't drink it normally. I bet you he would still wake me up though! His favourite treat is ham. I bought a big packet of the wafer thin stuff, two loaves of bread and made sandwiches. I was left with 3 slices which Charlie went mad for. As soon as he can smel it, he is up on his hind legs and battling and the kitchen work surface with one of his front paws. He just woofs the slices down, and then is desperate for more.

He did go off outside by himself last night. He come upstairs around midnight, and when i woke up at 3 he had gone again. I found him outside being king of the castle. I beckoned to him, and he bounded inside. I cannnot wait for the cat flap to be fitted next Monday. He's quite a lazy cat, so i bet he won't go outside during the day, but it would be good for him at night.

Ok - so i need to put a plan into action, so that I am not completely out of pocket.

I have a little bit of money left in my old Nationwide account, i think that this might cover the cat flap. I then have around 100 pounds to find, as i am going to assume that this money doesn't get returned to me. Well, as i have to pick up my studies again (i started last night and it was hard because it was so dull), i am not going to spend any money going out for food. For a pound i can buy a frozen yorkshire pud with beef and gravy as a sunday lunch treat.

This missing money has really put a downer on me, as i just remembered i was going to go to the OU open day in a couple of weeks.

Do you have those days where it seems like everything is against you? I checked my bank statement last night (thank goodness for on-line accounts) and found out the holmes place had taken out money for personal training. I still have not received the refund for the cancelled session so i am now down 150 pounds. This is a lot of money. The deputy manager said he will ring head office now to stop any future direct debits, but to get the money back is going to take two weeks. I am really unhappy about this as it such a lot of money. I had booked in for fresh start to fit a cat flap, but i can't really afford that now. And yet it has to be done. I am getting into a real panic now. DD's are so useful, but so out of your control.

Another good Ceric session. I learned 4 new moves and had some good exercise. My shoes were ok, but after 30 mins they were beginning to hurt. I think that whatever i wear my feet will hurt as they are simply so flat. However, it wasn't the kind of extremely burning hurt so i think i will stick with them. They are definately better for dancing than my boots. Not least because the heel as gone funny on one of boots, and i shall have to buy a new pair soon.

I stayed a little bit later than last week, but it meant that i didn't hit the hay until very nearly midnight.

Hurray, my blog is publishing again!

I caught up with my OU tv programmes last night, and i think i'm going to devote the next two weekends to mammoth TMA writing. It should be possible, not least because i have to produce for the exam two answers equivalent to two tmas in 3 hours.

If i make it to Ceroc, i won't do anything tonight. Thursday and Friday i will get back at the book to refresh myself before i start the TMA. I am finding it such hard going though. I love learning about pots, but wars and politics are just not interesting me at all.