Well, it now seems that Blondie and Orion are engaged...and so is one of the girls at work, and so it tatman's foster daughter.... seems like everyone....

Trying to keep happy and positive, but finding it quite hard. Maybe i am really not a nice person at all.

I want someone in my life who will invite me round to their house, and will hug me...

On the plus side, i am really enjoying having Rawk as my housemate. We usually have anice chat in the morning, and i like having someone to spur me into doing things on my house...

Blimey. Today Blondie decided to speak to me. Turns out though, that he is probably getting back with Orion..... so no wonder. did he ask anything about me and what i've been up to, or how i am...of course not.

I also picked up a small bottle of SC for Rawk, as i know that he likes that. Oh how i wish i had someone special that i could shop for. Maybe some people, like me, are just not meant to have anyone.

A little later... Blondie spoke to me for like an hour. Usual shite from Orion. Despite all our differences, i wish that Blondie could get Orion the help he needs, or just walk away...

Things are going pretty well. I am still enjoying having a housemate. Although time will tell when i am back to having loads to do in the evenings and am exhausted from travelling to and from Kings Heath. I am beginning to think i need to slow down a little. Perhaps after the bout i won't go to advanced AND basic skills, but pick only one each week. I think that will help, as i am aware that i am getting tired out, and then trying to keep my Thursdays and Fridays free.

This seems sensible to me, as i am just not a strong as i was (age/ shingles i don't know) and i would like to do things closer to home that help me with my general fitness.

The good thing about having a housemate is that it is really spurring me into action. I have bourght lightpulls, and replacement sockets. And i am hoping to go to B and Q on the Saturday after xmas to get my bathroom sorted!!

I bought Blondie a little present, as something a little cheering as he is not back with Orion. I doubt he'll even acknowledge it, but hey i don't buy xmas prezzies for thanks.... i buy them because it gives me pleasure! I bought a little something for Rawk, i dillydallied over what to get him, but got him a hat and scarf set to keep warm, in the end.

Well Blondie seems to be completely ignoring me, unless he wants to be drama queenish and complain about stuff. No wonder he cries about having no friends if this is how he treats people.I had forgotten how everything is all about him. I am so pleased with myself for having moved on.

As for me, I am getting settled living with Rawk. It's quite weird, but we get along pretty well, and at the moment our working cycles are completely out, so i am in bed and asleep by the time he comes home, and i am usually up and about miles before him. but that's cool.

I'm getting a bit stressed about having so much STUFF (not his, mine) but slowly getting it sorted.

Well i did go with Rawk to Merry Hill, then dropped him off at work. We get on pretty well, which is good. In fact, over the past week we've come to an agreement that he is going to move in and be my housemate! We are the same age, and he is pretty chilled out. So I am going to give him my room, and move into the smaller bedroom, since the rest of the house is mine. I don't know what date he's going to move in yet, as he works shifts, but i think things could be good.

It's weird, but 3 years ago, i couldn't have imagined living with anyone, and now i am actively seeking it...