Well my junior team lead is still speaking to my with his back turned...pity we no longer have an HR person here because i'm not sure now how to broach the subject.

I'm supposed to be working with another team soon, maybe it'll be better. I won't be pushed out.

Dear God,


So far today I've done all right.

I haven't gossiped,

I haven't lost my temper,

I haven't criticised or moaned.

I haven't been snappy, grumpy or nasty,

selfish or over indulgent.

I'm very thankful for that.

But in a few minutes, Lord,

I'm going to get out of bed,

and from then on I'm probably going to need a lot more help.

Amen

I just booked myself tickets to see the RSC's production of All the great books at the warwick arts centre.

Working late tonight. Was going to hit the gym, but it's 6:30 now.

I wrote TMA09 on Saturday. I didn't sleep well, worrying about it

(exams next year..oh dear) so got on at 7:30 am and just went for it.

I'm not sure how good it is, but it's written. I also went to the gym

on both Saturday and Sunday.

Work sucks. my junior team lead hardly speaks to me, when he does

it's to my back. I know that I want to work with animals, and to work

for the RSPCA as an inspector i need to be fit. So this is more of a

long term goal.

I cannot wait for my next OU course, it sounds so interesting. I

should have the stuff by Friday, so i basically have a week off. Which

won't be wasted as I have plenty of tidying and sorting to do. And

floor tiles to choose.

I watched SATC on Friday and it really rang home. I have my own home

now and the only present i got was a two pound cutlery holder. Over the

years I have bought engagement, wedding, house warming and new baby

presents. For the single girl there is nothing. I don't begrudge

spending the money, but just once i wish...

I can't find my latin dictionary and it's annoying me no end.

It's beginning to get colder. I have my cardigan on for the first

time in ages, and my fingers are feeling a little stiff with cold.

i've also been thinking about my paper journal, which is now little

more than a scrapbook...and even this on-line version has much less of

me.

I suppose i'm more balanced at the moment, no ups and downs which

makes more interesting writing and reading!

I'm going through a lot of magazines at the moment, clipping out the

pictures are articles i want to keep and recycling the rest. More room

for my OU stuff...

I really need to finish my bedroom off, but i'm so stuck on the

wardrobe, maybe when i hire someone to put up the lining paper i should

get them to strip that too? I really need to get a good, free project planner on my PDA...

Ok - so I've been for a couple of times to the gym, it's actually good having someone to chat to and keep you motivated. I'm almost considering getting one once a month when this programme is through. I haven't been to any classes yet, i don't have the confidence, but hopefully again when these two months are up I will feel fit enough to start joining in.

So far every time i have been to Holmes Place it has been quiet. Thursday evening and Sunday afternoon. No queuing for machines, and no hordes of scary blokes.

I've started painting my kitchen again, and hopefully Saturday or Sunday will make a concerted effort to look for tiles. Then i need to rope Darren in to help me do my floor. He did a fab job on his and Lindsay's.

Time to catch up. I have nearly finished TMA08, i'm hoping to type it up tomorrow morning as I wait for my kitchen. I also decided to join Holmes place. They are doing a special inchloss programme, slightly more expensive than the regualr gym membership, but i get some PT sessions for two months. I need to get going again and i think that going to a different gym will give me the push i need. New gym, new start. I also need to stop spending money, so using my time at the gym is going to help there too (plus i will be able to fit into all those clothes that are currently too small).

A new kitchen should encourage me to actually cook, and eat better. Is 2003 the start of a new me?

From the 8th:
What a busy weekend. I wrote almost all of tma08, i just have religion to finish off and then tidy everything up. soem of that was a result of the day school. Aston has a nice campus, although the buildings are a little dated. Sadly because it was out of term time a lot of building work was going on inside the main building, and it was a nightmare to find the rooms were the lectures were held. But i did and certainly learned a lot from the art history and history of science lectures.

I then decided to go to Bullring (whatever happened to the the??). It is now a very light and airy place, but huge. I got lost in Selfridges trying to find the lifts! It's also rather expensive to drive to (i paid 5 pounds for the car park), i may get the bus next time.

Sunday i raced around again, buying vouchers for my sister, weeding and trying to finish off music in tma08.

i'm exhausted. but despite that i'm contemplated joining Holmes Place.

I didn't write my 250 words, but i did do 200, so that was good. I'm rather stuck now, so i'm going to go back onto music again. This day school had better be enlightening!

My car died on the way into work. Or rather, plumes of smoke were eminating from the engine. Apparently I have a water leak, and i'm just awating a call from the garage to say that it has been fixed.

Which i just got. Of course i can think of better ways of spending 100 quid (not least paying the bloke who is going to fit my kitchen)

Today:
I managed nearly 250 words last night, so I am pleased. I decided to leave religion and music and go straight onto Art. I'm hoping to finish it off tonight, but since I am ahead by one day, i'm not going to worry if i don't. I should probably start thinking about getting some of it typed up, making it easier to read. And easier to proofread.

I didn't get much inspiration from smartgroups, which leads me to think that i have misunderstood the question slightly. I also need to put in more evidence, but that's easier when the text is all written.

Yesterday:

I didn't really do my 100 words last night, probably closer to 60, and i feel more muddled than ever. Oh well. I'll have a good look through smartgroups this evening before i sit down to write, and see if i can get some further ideas!

Ok - OU stuff out of the way first. I made a bit of a start on my TMA. I feel a bit lost really, and certainly didn't write as much as i had hoped. But i have stuck to my guns about 100 words a day and now have 400 words written, a fifth done. Hopefully after the day school next Saturday i should feel more inspired. I also have a tutorial tonight, which i am hoping will sort a few things out in my mind, which is even more useful than my 100 words a day rule. I'm cutting it a bit close this time, but i hope that i will actually write more than 100 words, I have so far.

I rejoined Blockbuster this weekend. I wasn't very impressed by their customer service, but they do let you have things for two days...still i think i will continue to patrionise the video shop near mums house. Excellent customer service, and they let me browse for AGES!