Enough with that

The instructor who took the bootcamp phoned me up, and I'm going to do a 30 min pt taster session. He thought I did well, as I never gave up and even if I couldn't do all the exercises I did alternates which were still hard for me. I ache!
But I am going to go for a swim after work as I need to do something. Need to take my mind off things.
I need hugs

Weighed myself this morning. I put on 1lb. All that hard work for nothing

Keeping on going

I just wrote a whole load which got wiped. Annoying. Keeping up the gym. I did a boot camp class which was hard work, but fun. Felt ravenous afterwards, and gave in to eating.
Tomorrow I'm going for a swim to relax a bit, and also keep up gym attendance. They are doing "do two" where if you go twice a week, you get small rewards. Trouble is my dd didn't go through properly. I hope that this evenings session counted.
I am (hopefully) away on holiday for the last week, so got to try and fit in four more sessions. I am keeping track of when I go, to try and motivate myself.
I want to be fit and healthy.

Then again

Thinking about it, could I do all the things that I enjoy doing if I had a little family? Probably not.

Snow gone

It's now turned to slush. But it feels like it's been here for months.



I never thought I would see it so low!
I'm currently listening to a book I got from audible. Seems like a good service.

A good night

Jewellery drawer sorted. Dining room table sorted. I have a long way to travel tomorrow, but I am
Hoping to try and go straight to the gym so that I cam get that done. Then, at home, I am going to sort out a little of my study. I have a piece of carpet and a broken chair which need moving outside so that they can be taken to the tip.
Slowly, but surely.

On a roll

Well, I went swimming, had a jacket potato for lunch, carrot and hummus for tea. I put up a towel holder, did some expenses. I'm going to sort out my jewellery drawer during CSI and in the ad breaks try and clear the dining room table.

Better person

Ok, so how do I become a better person? Firstly by not mentioning other people in specifics here, or elsewhere online. That will take away any niggles or guilt, as there simply won't be any!
Next I shall be smiley and happy. Who would want to know someone who is sad and miserable??
Then I lose weight.
The past few weeks, seeing even more of my friends get engaged, or tell me that they are expecting has really made me realise even more that I want I little family of my own. I don't necessarily mean children, a cat and companionship is good enough!
I feel old. But the things that are now important to me will take time to achieve, if they are even possible for me.
I have made terrible mistakes, but one day I will be good and will be worthy of someones love.

I now have a toilet roll holder in my bathroom. I am very proud of myself. I am slowly getting things done.
I'm turning over a new leaf from today.
I will try to do one home improvement task each day, three times a week I want to be down the gym getting some exercise.

Alone

Sitting by myself, feeling alone. Just the cat for company. Tomorrow my plan is to go to the gym, and start losing all this weight.
I want to make myself a better person. Both physically and mentally.


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Snow

I should probably write a little something about the hardest winter that I can remember.


It feels like there has been snow on the ground for weeks. It has not prevented me from getting out and about to work, though with my little smart I take things very easy. Automatic cars are much more difficult to maintain control of in the ice.
Joining the gym at Starcity today. Determined to get fit and lose weight. Then, whatever happens in my life, I shall be better prepared physically for it.

Another hard day in a branch full of women with husbands, boyfriends and babies. Tying to keep positive and smiley.
I need hugs and kisses...

Happy New Year

2010. I'm not sure what this year will bring. By this time next year I want to have finished this house and look to be selling or renting.
But as to where, I am not sure. I'm a planner and I am struggling with a lack of a plan. My heart is torn.
I know that I want so much, too much. Too much for anyone.
So I must get my own life on track. Starting with the house and losing weight. If everything goes wrong then at least there will be some positive things going on.
I have been so happy, people tell me that I seem so much more chilled out. I want that happiness to last, but I don't want someone else to be unhappy. I care too much for that. I know that as long as I live, I will love and care. How could I not?my heart is so big, it just seems to keep overflowing with love.
What's that phrase? Love is patient.