Not feeling too good, but i'll give a quick update. I got thepackage, apparently they hadn't delivered it after all...so i picked it up fromt he sorting office. Tyhe actual radio isa little flmisyer than i had imagined, but it's cheap enough that if mum gets dirt or water on it (she wants it for user int eh garden), it wouldn't be the end of the world if it broke..

Ooh - i'm going to the cinema tonight. I'm going to see XXX, whcih i don't really want to see, but since i've been invited by two spice members, i thought i would go! I like them both, so it'll be nice to see them, plus i'm also going to Prague with spice with them, so it'll be good to get to know them better before the trip

I ordered my mum's christmas present last week, i was a little nervous about ordering from an on-line company, and yes it has gone wrong. No it isn't their fault though. According to Royal Mail (the on-line company correctly used recorded delivery) it was delivered to my house. But i never got it. I have now raised a complaint, and they will investigate.

I had a reasonable spinning session last night, and tonight it's combat. Normally i would be looking forward to it, but instead of Yvonne taking it...it's Mad Madge. Because i cannot run for long i tend to power walk during the cooldown period, but the last time i had a class with Madge she said everyone had to run and no-one was to overtake...so i basically held everyone up. It was very embrassing...i wonder if i shoudl have a word with her beforehand...

Next week we are having a team night out to TGI Fridays...a nice bit of Salmon for me please!

I'm also thinking about doing a jewellery making weekend. I loved the course i did in Chesterfield, but can remember so little of it now.

Went shopping last night, this time to Dorothy Perkins, and found a very cute top. Twenty pounds, and since it's black it will go nicely with any of my black trousers. It also has a matching skirt, but i'm not sure about it because of my stomach. I'll decide come November.

Had my appointment with the psych this morning. I think i have abandonment issues...

I had a good visit with my grandparents, and came back with another new hand knitted scarf! It's a pale creamy colour, and will keep my neck lovely and warm in the wintery cold months ahead. I also discovered that my grandparents, when they were first married, took in a family of evacuees! I had no idea.

After visiting them, i stopped off at Fosse Park, i was pleasantly surprised to find that i could make the journey to Fosse park in around 35 minutes, and although it doesn't have as many shops and Merry Hill, it certainly had a good selection, and is a much easier journey than the trip to Merry Hill. I may end up going there again when Christmas looms (or maybe afterwards, since i had a great deal of trouble finding a car parking space!).

Friday night i nipped into Wallis and tried on a red dress that i have had my eye on. The sort of xmas party dress i have dreamed off. Apart from being about 6 inches too long, it was nice. But not for me. The red did not look good with my pinky/white skin tone and the dress itself emphasised that i have an "ample bosom"(as it were) and a huge stomach. I think that i may end up buying a nice top instead and wearing it with trousers. At least i can wear the top with other things, and end up saving myself about 50 quid!

So what did i buy? Well i bought a new black top from Marks (reduced from 14 pounds to 8 pounds) and a grey top with a star logo (reduced from 16 pounds to 10 pounds).

I also bought a new fleece from Tescos, which i know i will need as the weather gets colder, and my old fleece is now too ratty to look nice.

I took an alternative route to work because of this. Awful stuff. It meant that i took A roads into work, and that i got a little lost, but i enjoyed the beautiful warwickshire countryside and had a little envy at the old-fashioned houses.

OK back to your regular programming for a Friday

1. How many TVs do you have in your home?

I'll pretend that i'm n my own house and say 1.

2. On average, how much TV do you watch in a week?

I tape a couple of hours a day, but i watch more at weekends. Maybe 20 hours or so?? Probably a bit less

3. Do you feel that television is bad for young children?

Not necessarily.

4. What TV shows do you absolutely HAVE to watch, and if you miss them, you're heartbroken?

I LOVE CSI. Although at the moment it's repeats, so i wouldn't be heartbroken. I've missed some Angels episodes and not missed out. Probably Buffy? Maybe Farscape (but only because if i missed it i would struggle to understand what was going on afterwards). Most of the rest are DIY shows, so it doesn't matter, or short lived series' like Fat Friends.

5. If you had the power to create your own television network, what would your line-up look like?

Some comedy, some sci fi, Millennium...

I've seen the dress that i want to wear for the christmas season. No on-line pictures i'm afraid, but it's red! Thisis a huge departure for me who normally wears black all the time. It's also 60 quid, which is quite a lot fo money, so i'm looking around for cheaper alternatives... I also haven't tried it on yet, so i don't know how good a fit it is, or fat it'l make me look!

well, i have arranged to go and visit my grandparents on Saturday. One good thing about not seeing them for a while is that i have so much to tell them! All about the house and skiing. And i will get to see their new car. I think that they do understand that my weekends are precious, but they won't be around for ever and with them gone, it'll be my last link with my dad gone forever.

I had a good eveningm followed by a lousy one.

I have a good spinning class, and then a one to one here i discovered that i had lost a little weight and (more importantly) had managed to lower my resting heartrate - especially impressive since i had done the spinning class beforehand.

I maybe fat, but according to living well's statistics my fitness is actually rated as "excellent".

Then i swam home in my car, and got called. As i raced upstairs i was screamed at by my sister for not stopping to speak to my mum...i spent most of the rest of the evening in tears uncomforted. After all, i was only trying to do my job, and what mum needed to tell me (about the shower) i didn't need to know until this morning). Of course, mum wouldn't tell my sister off for screaming at me, and when i caugh her alone and said that i thought that we needed to sort out what the problem was...she just walked away.

It reminds me of the old times when dad was alive. Oh how i miss him. My sister is my mums favourite, and i was my dads, and thigns feel lopsided without him.

I think that maybe this sunday i should go and visit my grandparents.

The cheer myself up i decided to look through the world of froud website; their creativity always astounds me.

I really can't wait to move. No more screaming or shouting...only peace.

Well hey. I saw an advert for GSOH magazine in select (those in the Birmingham area will probably know Select), and looked for it in the shops yesterday. couldn't find it, so rang up the distributer to ask where i could find it. It was actually the publishers that i spoke to who told me that there had been a problem, but it should be out in the shops this week. He started talking about it (quite excitedly!) and said that he would pop a subscription form in the post for me and...would i like some free tickets to the launch party?

Yes, that would be lovely, says i! Sadly it clashes with TH2 next month, but all we are doing is going to a pub, so i don't feel too badly about it.

Now, if they turn up i will be delighted. Apparently it's at someplace called Bamboo, which i have never heard of. But i think it would be good to go out there and experience something new.

Anyone want my other ticket?

So i was fed up and feeling single, so i decided to be proactive. Ok so around 7 blokes have rejected my profile...so i sent out another one. This time to a guy 10 years older than i, but i think if they guys my own age don't want to know, maybei should look for someone a little older.

a work colleague announced his whirlwind engagement today. I am happy for him, but still that little green monster lurks...

I sent off my profile to two more blokes and got rejected by them...

Friday five!

1. If you could only choose 1 cd to ever listen to again, what would it be?

This is a tricky one. But probably "Mumurs" by REM. I could spend a lifetime trying to figure it out!

2. If you could only choose 2 movies to watch ever again, what would they be?

This is a much harder question to answer. My favourite film is "charade" but would i get bored...i don't know...and maybe "The Princess Bride" because it's so funny and sweet.

3. If you could only choose 3 books to read ever again, what would they be?

I would find this extremely hard. You can see how much i read by looking on the right of this page! I would probably go for "pride and prejudice","Gaudy night","Crystal singer" (for some trashy light reading)

4. If you could only choose 4 things to eat or drink ever again, what would they be?

This just gets harder and harder. How about jacket potatoes, water, cheese and bananas?

5. If you could only choose 5 people to ever be/talk/associate/whatever with ever again, who would they be?

Lindsay (easily my best friend), Steve (my best male friend), Sally, Piney and Lizzzie.

Had a call from my solicitor to say that i am definately not going to close on the 18th. I rang up Dixons who calmed me down a little saying that everything was going through. I also have to remember that my vendors do have other places to go to. Yes, it may not be in the next week, but if i remember to keep breathing calming, it'll happen.

I'm also going to phone the estate agents next week (Monday) and see if there are any updates, or further news.

I finished "i was a teenage fairy" last night. I can't say that i found it witty, smart or modern. It was pretentious (and swearing doesn't make you cool or smart). I cared little for any of the characters (except Griffin)...

ok weight is going up and up again. From going to my lowest almost back up to my highest. And i went spinning last night, too. It's because this week i just don't seem to be able to stop eating. Nothing seems to fill me up.

Yesterday morning i was down to my lowest weight in a long while, but i just ate and ate and ate yesterday and it went back on again. Fortunately only one pound up...

My website realyl does need redoing - but i'm just too damn lazy. Maybe when i move house i'll borrow someones digicam and get some pictures of it.

I probably didn't realy write much about my trip to London. Well my train was on time (both ways) and i managed to get buses to shepherds bush on the Wednesday. The area was quite run down, and i didn't feel very safe, so i was glad that i decided to stay close by it so i didn't have to walk around the area on my own late at night.

The concert was packed out. I had my excellent seats, but ther were people standing at the back of the auditorium (by the bar and behind the mixing desk). I guess the MOBO award meant more publicity and more people wanting to see her. The concert was excellent,, with many songs from the album and some other covers as well as some new songs. They all sounded great.

I spent the night in a slightly dodgy hotel, but i survived and enjoyed a good breakfast of toast (spread with nutella!), cereal, OJ and a lot of tea. It was worth the price.

Then i headed back to the main shopping areas and wandered around Oxford road and covent garden for ages. I arrived at Euston about an hour early, but my feet were just tired and blistered and i wanted to go home!

Fascinating fact - i know the Andy Salmon mentioned in this article... Sadly i didn't see it as i was fast asleep at the time!

Oh my goodness i nearly forgot the Friday five!

1. What size shoe do you wear?

I wear a UK size 13.5, yes i know that's very small. I generally wear a size 1 because few manufacturers make half sizes anymore.

2. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

Far too many! I reckon about 20.

3. What type of shoe do you prefer (boots, sneakers, pumps, etc.)?

Something really pretty, a strappy sandal.

4. Describe your favorite pair of shoes. Why are they your favorite?

The sketchers trainers i'm wearing right now which are comfy and well worn in

5. What's the most you've spent on one pair of shoes?

80 pounds. Which doesn't sound a lot, but remember i buy childrens shoes which are cheaper because there is no VAT on them.

Hallo! I'm back after spending two days in scary London seeing Norah Jones. The concert was packed out, and i think it was because she one best Jazz act at the Mobo awards (but i didn't know this at the time). I had FAB seats, row c and the person in front of me didn't turn up. Oh how i wish that i had taken my camera...she played many from the album and some new songs which had a lovely country jazzy feel to them. I hope they make the next album soon.

The hotel was slightly dodgy, with notices about "visitors", but it was warm and dry and gave me a decent breakfast and was only a short walk from the SBE, so i was pleased.

Well, it turns out that there was a fire, fortunately no-one was hurt!

My deposit money (well most of it) has now been put into the right account so all i need to do now is give a cheque to the solicitor. I even got more interest on it than i thought (90 quid instead of 30 quid), so that's an "extra" bit that i canput towards paying off something i owe straightaway.

Unfortunately my credit card agreement form hasn't been recieved yet, so i can't use that...oh well

The alert fire alarm is currently going off at work. I knwo have aheadache and wish that the evacuate one would go off so i could leave the noise behind!