I wish guys would just be straight with women. Not just leaving me hanging...

I guess this is why my dreamworld is so much better. There, guys don't play games, and everything is so much more straightforward.

My team leads wife said on the Friday that he was an idiot. I think she's wrong. I'm the idiot for thinking that someone might actually like me!

Well i heard nothing, i asked Stephen for some advice, and he thinks that he might just be making up his mind.

I dunno. I think he actually doesn't like me, and I have completely misread all the signs.

Quality not quantity. I quite agree, although when the quantity is zero, it makes it rather hard!

We had a works do on Friday, and this guy that i rather like was there. He even sat next to me at dinner, he seemed interested. He asked me if he could ask me a personal question (how old was I), and if i had my eye on anyone...

But then, after we ate he seemed very distant, and my team leads wife tried to get him to com up and dance with us (i was too shy to ask him myself), but he only danced for a minute or so...

Even my team leads boos asked how it went! He'd obviously heard...i dunno...

I just heard back from Vicci! I am so delighted as i have been trying to reach her for such a long time. We were good friends at school, best friends for several years and then drifted away. It didn't help that she moved from Birmingham straight after A-levels. It is so good, in fact she suggested that we phone tonight! I cannot wait!

Oh, i bought myself a ricecooker on Saturday. It came courtsey of the rest of my Christmas money from my grandparents, and means i don't have to worry about rice burning the pan, or boiling over. Just easily cooked and perfect rice!

I screwed up my courage, and gave the guy i like a little hint via msn....sadly no response.

I am so busy these days with work, that i hardly have time to think, let alone write. Still sometimes it's better to be busy, than twiddling my thumbs.

I went speed-dating a couple of Saturdays ago, i got several "friendship" matches, but only one of them bothered to write back. How rude!

Some days i find myself retreating into my own private imaginary world. It isn't exactly healthy i know, but i dream of meeting someone who is kind and respectful. After all, it simply isn't happening in the real world, despite me trying.

I haven't updated in a long time. So what's new?

Someone drove into my car on Christmas Eve. Fortunately it was just a scratch.

I also had no hot water upstairs and had to around 80 quid to get that fixed. MY washine machine flooded, and so did my drains.

This morning, the hot water went off upstairs again, I am hoping that Uncle Bob can come and have a look, i think that there is air getting into the pipes somewhere. I am grateful that the shower is still giving hot water, as life would be a bit desperate.

I visited Joolz' sister Melanie. She has a lovely brand new flat with her partner. It really made me feel a bit depressed as mine has so much wrong with it (see above).

I don't feel motivated at all...

I hope all my wonderful readers had a fabulous New Year and Christmas.