I didn't get home til late last night after the OUSA WM management meeting (which went well, although it was held in very nosy pub so i couldn't hear a lot of things), i was glad that i had got so far ahead with tma07 since it gave me a day off to just go to bed!

Today i hope to finish off the section on Medea (and perhaps the part of the conclusion which relates to it), pack a little more, and programme my video!

From the 22nd
I didn't write yesterday because I was rather annoyed at having a bad shopping day on Sunday. I bought MGS2 and a palm515. I got home only to open the box for MGS2 and it was completely empty. I then opened the box for my palm and it also did not have the cd in it.

ARGH! I asked if i could leave work early on Monday and was granted this request.

I first of all went to Game in Sutton where i was straight in and out with the cd's that i needed. Result!

Then onto Comet. They wer very slow at comet, but i was wearing comfy shoes and going nowhere. I may have bought and ex-displayed model (for twenty quid less and only a couple of scratches on the back) but it definately should have had the docmentation and cd with it. I think, in order to get rid of me, they actually opened up the box of a new one and gave me what i needed. Result!

So yesterday evening i was very pleased. I spent a little time figuring out my palm, but i really like it. Very easy to use and does exactly what i needed it to.

I also got called about a last minute meeting for the OU WM which is on Wednesday. This puts my schedule for writing my TMA out a little, but i will keep on going, and remember that I do have a sat and Sun to write after i return from summer school. I still think i could finish off the Medea before i leave, which would be a big chunk of work done.

And of course i have a long train journey which can be used for making notes and possibly even a rewrite of my first section.

I think that it just means a late night when i could have done with a lie in..

I haven't written for a few days, i have been so busy at work. Not that that is a bad thing, but it means i'm so frazzled by the end of the day.

I've finished glossing and painting my study, so tonight i'm going to shift the desk back and put a bookcase and books back in it. Then i must measure up for a curtain rod and some sheer curtains. Finally, seven months down the line I nearly have one room finished!

I also need to tidy up before I go away. I don't think i'll move my pc over before i go, but i can certainly move some of the cd's i use for it and all my magazines.

I worked late last night, and got told off by the same manager who thought i was panicking. But hey, since they won't let me do on call when i need to do work i can no longer take a laptop home and do it, so i have to stay late and do it.

Plus, i told him several times that users were waiting to test, so i couldn't simply say, right it's OOH now and i'm off home.

It meant that I wasn't able to get back to my house and do some touching up of the paintwork, but i did finish the unit on WSS. Tonight i'll do the paintwork and pick up the tapes for the music unit, and have a good go through that.

I did ask if i could leave early today, but I can't...so it really makes a mockery of everything that manager said to me.

Oh and apparently that fact that I have worked every bank holiday this year means nothing. So I guess I won't be volunteering to do any more!

From Yesterday


I had an email from a company which was set up in response to confidence lab (a prog which i watched a couple of years ago), the ntoed that i had watched it and mentioned it here and invited me to come along to one of their courses. It's about a hundred quid, but it sounds like it could be worth investing that in me.

I finally finished painting my study. It just needs a few touchups, but that will onyl take a few minutes, and then i need to regloss the skirting and windowsil where i wasn't so steady with the brush. Then i can move everything back and think about moving Pootle over.

I worked through block 5 yesterday after Pranav's wedding, and almost finished the unit on Wide Sargasso Sea, and made a good start on the musical unit. I should hopefully finish WSS tonight, and do a little more on the music. This shoudl give me the time to, perhaps, do half of the next tma before I go to summer school. I only have a week after I return, but part of that week is a weekend, and I have the following Monday off, which should be plenty of time to write 750 words.

And i should be going over to Melody's house sometime this week, and we can bounce idea's off each other. That should keep my interest up in this "summer break" and hopefully inspire me. Unfortunately I'm working this weekend, otherwise I could have got 300 words written fairly easily. But I'll do what I can, when I can. I have mostly finished my PSX2 games, so I have no distraction from them, and can spend a little time working on my house, then going back to mums and studying there.

I should be receiving the USB pen drive that i won on ebay, much sturdier than a floppy or a cd, it means I can take any work with me to summer school, should inspiration strike whilst I am there.

Apparently i am too flappy at work, despite being on call and working more weekends and bank holidays than anyone else, i make one mistake in escalating something and now i am not allowed to be on call anymore.

It's all a matter of perception. And at least i didn't cry this time, but it makes me so angry. I worked so hard, and for nothing...

But i'm going to be positive about it. They may think i panic, but i know how much better i am, how much stronger i am than only a few months ago. How i don't cry every day at work, how I don't drive myself crazy by going through things over and over again. For work it's important they my bosses know, but for the rest of me and my life it's important that i know. Since only i can improve things.

but i'm being proactive again, i spoke to HR to get some advice onhow to tackle this and i'm going to speak to my bosses boss since he is the one who felt i was panicking.

Tired again today, i overslept Monday morning and nearly did the same today. No chance of a lie in for the next four weeks, either. I must be more careful and start going to bed earlier, or i will make myself ill (again).

I've been looking at kitchens again. I think a new kitchen would make me eager to have people around, and it does need doing. Why not get it started now when the weather is good? I don't really know where to start, but I think I have decided on rimini from MFI. Blonde wood and silver...maybe!

Like i said, i don't know where to begin. Do i need to get the electrician out to help with deciding where the extra power points should go, or do i rip everything out first? I thinka trip to mfi maybe in order. Well i should go anyway to see if I like the kitchen in the flesh as it were, and find out how much it would cost. I wonder if I kept the info from b and Q? I will have alook at home tonight. I think I need a folder for home improvement work!

I think I really do need that, and a fridge, before i think about buying a PDA! And a nice kitchen might inspire me to cook better food...

I'm slowly working my way through the unit on Medea, it's not easy reading...

I finished "The onion girl" last night. A great read, although i didn't enjoy the ending....but it was the only ending that it cold have had. Typical De Lint! Faeries and magic, but no fairytale endings.

I thought about going back to the gym again, but maybe joining a new one. I had a look around Holmes Place at star city. Great facilities, but lousy aerobics timetable.

I did a lot of painting on the weekend, well i did most of one wall. And as a result i think i pulled a muscle in my arm. I woke up at 1am in terrible pain...i'm buying a roller on Tuesday!

Yesterday


Having a slightly better day today. Thank goodness.

I am well into rereading Wide Sargasso Sea. I still hate it, but should have it finished in a couple of nights. At the moment my tutorials are so close together, we should only just have started Medea, but next week we'll be discussing WSS which should be studied 4 weeks away!

It's not a good day today. I overslept because we had a powercut last night and i forgot to reset my alarm. Thne i got a puncture on the way into work, so had to call out rescue.

And now everything has hit the fan at work.

I think i should just have overslept the entire day really.