Lonely

I feel so alone and lonely. It shouldn't be this way. Even with hobbies and friends I have made through those, I still go home at the end of the day and have no companionship.
My heart never seems to get full.
I am probably far too needy and dependant, but then I have been on my own for so many years...
It's selfish of me to want someone just to have company. I need to learn more about putting other people before myself.
And some day, if I am very lucky, I will find someone who will not find me disgusting, and will be delighted to share their life with me. And I will love them and care for them and show them (and tell them!) everyday how much they mean to me, that I know that I am lucky and not take them for granted.
I am ready and open to settling down, the time is right.
So ... Where are you?