We talked a little last night, Rawk and I, via MSN. He's been back at his parents, and TBH i've not really seen much of him the past few weeks. If i was back in my old room it would have been as if he didn't exist at all.

I guess it's not what i was expecting or wanting. Or maybe things have changed for him...

He was supposed to be spending my birhtday with me, and maybe thats selfish, but i can see that he is already dropping hints about not even being here, never mind going out.

I don't really want to spend my birthday alone.