An okish New Year. Blondie and Orion officially engaged... and me, still single. I want to make myself into a better person, as clearly this is the problem.

I am also a bit worried that Rawk thinks i am completely insane and insecure, which in truth i am but this is something that i try and keep completely hidden. He never really seems to lack for people to have lunch with, and often stays over at his ex's...

I so long for friends that i can go and have lunch with, although Rawk will do that sometimes... and someone to hug, as i long for human contact. when i think about it, it really gets me down, and when that feeling passes, i am my usual bouncy and smiley safe. I like being smiley.