I went round to one of the guys from choir house last night. hE cooked me a veggy curry, and then he, his chap and me watched the first episode of summer heights high. I was laughing so hard. It's so inappropriate, but so funny. Then we went into town to meet up with some choir people. It's so great that we get on so well that we want to see each other, even on our summer break!

I was very nervous that Blondie and Orion would come in, and that there would be a scene. I was constantly very aware, and kept my eye on the door. Fortunately they didn't come in.

I long for the day when i don't worry about Blondie, or wish that he spoke to me. It's stupid really. It's not like he actually gave a crap about me, or had any interest in me.

And Orion was clearly just using me as a Blondie substitute as i keep seeing messages all about his best bud, and how he's going ot do stuff with her.

I long for a best friend to do things with. And friends who don't ignore me because you've done "something", but not tell you what that something is.