I feel so sad.

I know that i have choir, and skating and going to OUT pub meets and swimming and tatman, who has been so kind to me. But there is still an empty hole.

I went on a CCNA bootcamp this past weekend, and tatman (who was in vicinity) took me out to meet his family. It was so nice, just for one evening to feel welcomed and part of something else.

But today i'm at work, and really missing Blondie. And getting stressed, as i am going into town tonight, and i dont want any hassle from Orion.

Blondie agreed to be civil, but it seems that his idea of civil is to ignore me, as i have asked if he had a good weekend (as i do with other people) and he is ignoring me.

As i always thought he and his bf are pretty rude people.

Me, i like to try and keep the lines of communication open, but eventually in the face of everything you have to let go.