Sunday night i finally got to see Orion. We had a good long chat. Trouble is, he was telling me the same things he said 8 months ago; ie that he's not happy being with Blondie because Blondie is rude, arrogant etc etc and that people make comments about Blondie paying for everything.

I didn't want to get embroiled again (although it would be different to last time, as Blondie doesn't speak to me anymore), so i suggested that maybe the pair of them need to speak to a third party. As, let's face facts, Blondie isn't going to change (or, at least, not over night), and Orion believes that he will always be as he is (although i did say, you can't say never). So, then what?

Some sort of relationship therapy? To which Orion flat out said no. I asked him if it was as before, that he wants Blondie to either tire of him, or get angry enough with him and dump him.

Honestly, from the outside it doesn't look or sound healthy.

I pointe dout that when i have seen the two of them together, the seem happy. But Orion said, it's because he is out on the town. Unlike before though, i don't feel any confliction, or any impunction to tell Blondie.

Whether i hear from Orion, or not, we are friends. I realise now that he has a lot of other demands on his time, and thats cool. I would love a friend that i could see even just once a week, though. But hey.

I am also more aware that the way people (ok, Blondie) are, is not about me. Maybe i have made a lot of mistakes, but i'm only human. And i admit them, and am trying my hardest to overcome the way i am, that meant i made them. I might fail, but it won't be through lack of trying.

Blondie will never be the friend i think he is. He claims it wasn't one-sided, but then goes on to say that not everyone needs to know everything. Well, that to me is one-sided.