My life feels a bit like a roller coaster, or a roundabout. Some sort of fairground ride anyway.

I was quite upset last night, and lashed out at Dave and his comments of a while back about how i can't socialise with him. He's now denying he said it and won't speak to me. I've apologised and said that if i misunderstood than why not come with me to a quiz on Sunday. But he either doesn't reply or says no, Which kind of proves my point.

And i told Melindry that i liked her and was told that she only sees me as a friend.

I have got Blondie to admit that he has been avoiding me (as he doesn't want to talk about him and Orion,and has no desire to hear about any of my problems so clearly that all i was useful for). But no actual interest in trying to get things better.

So whichever way i have nothing.

Well not nothing. I'm glad i have roller derby. That keeps me so busy at least two times a week, and exercise definately helps lift my mood. I was a little too tired to go swimming on Monday and i really noticed it.