It also means that i can't really see Orion anymore, as i feel too uncomfortable, and i dont deserve to have to stay in that kind of situation.

I have a lovin heart, and no friends who actually want to send time with me, and people who just pick me up and put me down whenever they want.

Why do some people get all the want, and others get nothing.

I try to think of it in a positive way, that this sets me free to meet people who are interested in me and with whom perhaps i can get that deep relationship that i crave. I have a lot to give a friend.

I;ve decided that for a while, at least, i'm going to stop doing things for other people. No texts to cheer people up, or hope that they are having a great day. After all, no-one does it for me.