I find it difficult as last Friday i met the boys in town for one drink. Orion brought both myself and Blondie a rose each (mine after soem thought i think!) and hugged me and told me i was his best friend, and how much he was looking forward to having a day together properly catching up.

Tuesday i suggested going to subway city. Orion was all up for it, but then Blondie came and spent money on him and i never heard from him again. Still haven't.

I keep trying to remind myself that i am good person, with a big heart and i deserver friends, and a special person.