Everytime Blondie comes into the office, i start to feel stressed and upset and unhappy. I wish i didn't work here anymore. Yesterday he wanted to borrow a copy of my choirs CD. I asked him about it this morning and he just started slagging it off.

I mean, ok - it might not be the best CD in the world, but when you start slagging off the arrangements (and these aren't choir specific arrangements, but you know.... official ones) it all gets a bit much.

Why i thought that he would have anything positive to say at all, i don't know. It totally brought me down. But it also reminded me why i joined the choir. To have fun, and make friends and get some confidence back.

Y'know. i might not be as popular as Blondie, or have loud strong opinions... but what i am is supportive and i try and be positive about things. And i see that as being a good thing.

I do wonder if Orion would be able to stay with someone like that for a long time. I suspect that Blondie may be a little different with him as obviously he is head over heels in love with him. But it's his nature.

Then i start to worry, as i know it would break Blondie's heart. I despite his negativity and how rude he is towards me, i still care. And i don't want to see him so sad.