Or maybe they come into your life so that you can see the error of your ways. Whilst i think it's true that not everything Blondie says was true, it was also pretty bad, well ok it was fucking awful of me to get drunk with Orion and then end up on the phone to blondie in front of orion (although he was asleep). Orion decided to tell Blondie that we were together at the time, and quite rightly Blondie was angry. Well angry doesn't cover it really.

I have seen the error of my ways. I'm not a warm person, I am a terrible, horrible, bad person. And i sit and wonder why i have no friends, no-one to confide in.

Maybe i saw Orion and told him how hurt i was about Blondie ignoring me because it made me feel good to have someone who just for a few moments wanted to listen to me.

I have hurt Blondie so badly, which considering how much I care about him is not good. I am surprised that he is still speaking to me I(on and off) really.

Maybe, i shouldn't speak to people.

I am a selfish person, as I have so often been told. All i think about is me, and what i want, and how i can get it. I listen to other people though, but ultimately i do what i want.

I can't apologise enough, and i know that I have ruined what was a promising friendship.

I will use this to learn though.

What i want right now is a hug. But i'm going to try and think about how i can be good to other people instead.