I had another lonely night. I was hoping to see either Blondie or Orion, but no dice. I could have stayed at home being sad and lonely but decided to go out regardless. I was in the mood for dancing, but couldn't find any night that i fancied going to.

So i went to the cinema instead.

I am so lonely. Blondie is so closed off these days. Maybe quite rightly. But i am unhappy and lonely.

Orion promised to text me today, but i know that he won't. I'm lonely.

I'm lonely, lonely lonely. I'm sick and lonely.

I dunno how long i can last.

Even when i had someone they didn't want to spend time with me...i must truly be a terrible, terrible person.

I think he enjoys seeing me unhappy and lonely, as he no longer is. Not that i ever enjoyed seeing him that way.

I don't want to be a jealous person, but oh how i wish for someone of my own. I know my faults, and i try to conquer them.

The choir never contacted me back, but tonight i'm thinking about going to a pub quiz...on my own...

I'm hoping that i will be able to join a team and perhaps make some friends...

The lonliness is killing me