i didn't feel up to going to the quiz on my won, so i asked Bhav if she wanted to, she was out with some of her friends but invited me to join them after they had finished eating. Which i duly did.

We went to Loft Lounge and chatted for a coupkle of hours, mostly fairly weighty discussions about religion. I was still not terribly up though.

Leaving at ten, as we were about to part our ways guess who i bumped into? Correct. Blondie and Orion. As Blondie has sent a text saying that there were no issues, no bridges to build etc etc i decided to join them. I'm not sure how happy Blondie was about that, but Orion was cool, and we went back into Loft Lounge and then onto Missing later. Some dancing, and Blondie pulled the hood of my coat right over me and tied it up with a double knot..so i think things are getting better.

However, he still won't do lunch with me as per usual, and it hink it unlikely that we will ever go out together, more if we bump into each other it will be ok...

That makes me sad on a selfish note, as i don't like going out on my own...i don't feel terribly safe. But i have a choice now of going out alone, or not going out at all...

I asked im to lunch again today, but he just walked off...The stuff he doesn't want to deal with he just ignores...

Y'know, what i did, it surely wasn't bad enough to deserve this.

I guess he wants me to be a work friend only. Well i can understand about not confiding in me - although of course if i hadn't they would probably have never spoken again.

I wish i had a close friend of my own.

Last night i went to carol singing at the gale. It was quite festive!