Friday Blondie and his friend were supposed to come to the cinema with me. Blondie's friend ditched his job, so couldn't afford it. Which meant that at the last minute Blondie ditched on me. I was so upset...
Saturday was Joolz haloween party, to which i had also invited Blondie and his friend. Blondie bailed, but i pursaded his friend to come with me for a while. I picked Blondie's friend up and he told me that he felt that the relationship would never work... and you can guess how things went from there.
We stayed a little while at Joolz' and then headed into town, blondie's friend let him know we were going here. We met up with blondie and headed into a club. The longer we were there the more pissed off blondie's friend got with blondie. Which ended up in them having a massive row and blondie''s friend dumping him. Blondie's friend and i headed to the car, and i then spent nearly 2 hours trying to get them both into the same car together. I had blondie's friend crying,m and the blondie crying and me trying to comfort both.
Eventually they did get in and i drove him, but they had a massive row, i wanted to drop blondie's friend at his house, and get blondie to stay at mine. They shouted, and Blondie threatened to throw himself from my moving car unless i let him out by the side of the road, and eventually i told them both to get out as i was getting so upset. I sat for a few minutes and the drove on and caught up with them. Blondie got back in m car, but his friend ran off. I persuaded Blondie to come back to mine, where he sat crying for a while and eventually fell asleep on my sofa.
In the morning i drove him back to his house and checked back in with him later.
His friend has sent me a message saying that he never wanted to speak to me again, and so far he hasn''t.
The Sunday i spent some time on the phone with Blondie and i began to wonder if i made the right decision. I consider Blondie to be a friend, but i know that despite the support i have given him i don't believe that he thinks the same way.
Today at work he was quiet, but i bought him a couple of Latte's. Sunday evening he said he would spend some time with me on Monday, as i was really quite worried about him.
Today, this evening, he appears to be ditching me again.
I feel so stupid. I have an open and trusting heart. I'm lonely. I long for friends, and i feel that i am a good person, but i guess i'm not.
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