After last weeks hedonistic week, this has been quieter and somewhat sadder. This morning through, blondie signed onto msn early and seemed upset. I got him to phone me and his friend had dumped him. He seemed so unhappy, and offered to come round to his place and take him out this evening and told him i would phone him tonight.

I left work early and phoned him as soon as i got home to arrange to go round his house, but he wasn't at home. He told me he was in a country road not far from his friends house. I was not terribly impressed, although thinking back over the years i can imagine why he has done that. So, i'm staying in waiting for him to call back...

But.. well... i know, i know, story of my life arranging stuff and then other people not turning up...or just waiting for them to call...

I honestly wish i had friends that I could rely on...or someone to love me...

Either way i guess i wouldn't be sitting on my sofa on meds, crying...