Wednesday, October 31, 2007

So i decided to go back onto medication. I've been resisting it for a while, but on the scale the doctors has for depression which is out of 27 i now rate a 25.

Which isn't good. The doctor suggested councilling, but honestly i think i'm just wrong.

New medication though is making me nausious (i know i've spelt that wrong...) and i'm not really eating properly.

I know i wanted to lose weight, but this wasn't actually the method i had in mind...

Today has been really difficult health-wise, but on the plus side i am getting promoted. woohoo.

Sadly i have no-one to celebrate with.

Nothing like feeling sick and feeling depressed and lonely. I long for friendship. I try and do the things that i think friends do, but i don't seem to get anything back in return.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

sorry to hear things are looking bleak at the moment. I've been one of your readers for a while and hope things get better soon...

Anonymous said...

Ive been a depressive for 20yrs and always feel lonely. I've learned that the depression controls your life or lack of it! i now do what i want when i want and don't give a toss if others don't like what i do. It helps me to live my life. Nobody can tell me that im not important anymore cos I've learnt that I am.

Anonymous said...

I've been a depressive for 20yrs. I have learned recently that the depression has been controlling my life and im no longer going to allow it.Things happen to us all its how we deal with it that makes the difference. I found that listening to others made me feel worse so now I listen to myself and I'm getting better. I hope you get through ur rough patch

linda said...

I've been a depressive for 20yrs. In that time if learned that my depression was caused cos i worried about what others thought of me. Noe I do what i want when i want and if people dont like it tough. I'm happier and haven't touched a pill in 18 months. I hope you find your happy point.