I phoned up the counsilor last night i'm going to see her, with a couple of other ladies, tomorrow afternoon. I'm quite scared as this is a big step for me, but i'm tired of my weight going up and up, being in pain...

To pay for it, i'm going to be strict and use a week of on call money, the car is going to have to wait...

Please think of me tomorrow. I am so tired of everything. I used to be a very lively, active person - orienteering, skiing, dancing the night away, long walks up mountains...

One thing i noticed after being at Gorsley was how well my skin cleared up. I bascially spent all day sitting or roaming outside, with an hour in the morning and an hour at night in the Big Top. Now i'm back at work, and at my desk in an office all day my skin is back to being red and sensitive and blemished.