I forgot to mention that i decided to go to St cuthberts, my local c of e church on Sunday. The people there were rather on the old side, only a handful of younger people, and a very small congregation. However, the Church Warden welcomed me, and made sure i was followed the service correctly (parts were sung), but it was very High Church. It followed the Anglican book of prayer, most of which i can still recite by heart, but there were "bells and smells", a lot of genuflecting and praying to an Ikon of the Virgin Mary. I don't really think it's for me. Which is a pity, as it is in walking distance of my house, which encourages me to move rather than get in my car...

I am still giving real consideration to doing something like the Cambridge diet. I'm going to wait until i've paid off my credit card, which should be on November...i may even wait until after Christmas, as i think it will stress me out too much...but who knows. I believe it's about half the price of lighter living, and of course i won't be buying normal food, which will go some of the way to helping pay for it. I find it so frustrating getting bigger and bigger. It really isn't as if i sit at hoem and eat a packet of biscuits each night. Lately i've been having very simple meals of scrambled eggs and toast, or spaghetti carbonara which is made without cream or cheese (just spag, some garlic and pancetta fried off in a little olive oil, and then an egg added right at the end). I think i'm getting close to the point where i need to just let go of food completely...

I'm now very eager to pay off my credit card, and perhaps get a little money saved up for car fixing...