I'm a bit sad. Everyone is too busy to celebrate my birthday this year. I cannot help but think of Lee's 30th last summer when he had a lovely surprise party laid on for him. I keep telling myself that life will get better, that i am a nice person. But it gets so hard. It's especially hard when i go to other peoples parties, anniversaries and celebrations; but no-one comes to mine. I guess i must be a truly horrible person.

My sister hasn't asked if i would like anything, so i guess my 30th is going to be pretty bad and lonely. Oh well.

That said i did manage to set fire to my oven last week. I was off work sick, and was realyl paying attention. I left the grill on, and a short while later there were flames. Fortunately it was just the oven, and nothing else. But it could have been so much worse.

I am failing miserably at paying off my credit cards; but i am going to cut my car insurance. I'm currently paying for breakdown cover with the same company, but it is costing me over 300 quid. I can get the same for much cheaper. Saving well over 200 quid would be great.