I now have a shiny new oven. Hurrah! I am also very glad that my birthday is now over.

I was rather upset that my friend Joolz didn't send a card, but sent an e-card instead. I guess it's making me rethink quite a few things. I had cards from my mum, the Atkins, Mel, Aunty Jenny, my sister and my Grandma.

Only the one present though, the binoculars from my mum.

But at least i'm not crying anymore. I was rather upset that basically nothing happened, and compared to Lee's 30th where sucha fuss was made. I guess i am just a bad person.

I'm going to work harder at being nicer. Perhaps my 31st birthday will be filled with laughter and joy.

Now that sounds unkind. The Atkins very very kindly took me out for a meal on Saturday. Linds, Darren and both little marcus and OJ. Obviously i would have preferred a champagne meal at a very smart resto, but in the end friendship and time with people who really care about me was what I got; and it was probably better than i think i might have wanted! I had a balloon, and Marcus insisted i sit by him! Who could have wanted for anything else!

I am lucky to have friends like these!

No lovely Valentines day for me; but after all these yeas i'm rather used to it! I would love once to have a boyfriend and be really spoiled, but it's never happened.

Ok - now that's said and done. I had an email back from that guy saying that he'd like to see me again;maybe this weekend! I could do with a weekend to myself to be honest, but i am NOT going to say no. I have let perfectly decent guys go because i had no courage. And that stops NOW.