I forgot to mention that mum bought me some daffs for my birthday. They bloomed almost straightaway and look wonderful. So that is another postive thing.

Tomorrow would have been my Grandpas 90th birthday. I miss both him and my Dad terribly. Sometimes i can hardly believe that it's seven years since my daddy died. The pain is still so raw and i want to talk to him all the time. I know just what he would say: "No matter what, i love you, chicks".

Stuff it. I can afford my mums bday present, as my supermarket spending is down. I had planned for the breakdown cover, i think i'm just going to have to suck up to hosting expense. And from next month, put 6 quid a month aside to pay for it. I swear, but the end of this year i am going to be so organised financially.

I woudl also really like to go to the hobbies and craft show at the NEC towards the end of next month. I think the last few months have been hard due to unexpected costs like the electricity deciding to take money out, even though i had asked them not to, and of course this month having to pay the execess on the oven. I suppose that 100 i would have bought the books i wanted, and maybe a new item of clothing...

I am going to be positive. I will live through this.

I think i must keep forgetting. Because i'm not spending my overtime money, but using it to save up for the car repairs in July I am quite a lot down each month. This explains so much.