At the moment i seem to be filled with a terrible ennui. Nothing interests me. I retreat more and more into my dream world, mostly because it is so much better than real life.

I'm looking into TEFL salaries and it would be less than half of what i am on now. So i wouldn't be able to afford my mortagage anymore.

It all boils down to money in the end. I am beginning to think i should work a lot harder on the house, try and sell it for 30k more thani paid for it, and then get a house for 50k or so and have a much smaller mortgage.

Money is always a problem with me. I like to spend it. I must be better this month though, as i did dip into my overdraft. I spent too much on eating out. This month i have bought a birthday present for my sister. I would like to go out and do something with spice, but that would be another 20 quid.

One thing i am going to do is join a choir. THe first rehearsal is next Tuesday.