It's been quite a long time since i have written. I have found the past few weeks hard going. I had last week off work as it was Grandpas funeral on Tuesday - and i was also getting central heating and water installed. I now have hot water and toasty radiators!

Sadly i have around 150 quid to last for 3 weeks...

I continued emailing a guy (Martin) from Dating direct. We finally met a week last Friday and he seemed really nice. We agreed to meet again, but it was to see a play. I wasn't really sure about that as a) you don't spend any time getting to know the other person and b) it had strong sexual themes and i wasn't certain that this was an ideal second date. He said lets reschedule, and i was happy about that. The next day i got a text saying that he saw no future in us and didn't want to reschedule!

I was quite hurt and deflated by that. I quite literally felt squashed.

I ate and ate and have put on so much weight it's untrue.

It hasn't really been the happiest time for me, but i am trying to keep myself cheerful.