What a mistake. SO i asked the guy out. Turns out, that he is now going out with his friend.

It took a lot of courage for me to do that, I am not exactly the most confident person in the world and very, very shy. And now i am completely devastated.

Steve says that it's this guys loss....but it isn't, is it? He now has someone, and i am still alone!

I pray almost every night that i might meet someone, and it simply never happens. I try and be proactive and i just end up getting humiliated.

I really am so very very tired of being by myself. There is no upside, just a lot of time spent being very lonely. I fill my time with studying, and puzzling and playing with Charlie. I go to the gym, I try and be as nice as i can, and yet...

There must be something fundamentally wrong with me.

Don't mind me, i'm just more than a little upset. Tomorrow i will be better, and back to trying to think of ways to meet nice blokes.