It's one of the self-purpetuating things really. I get left out, and so i get angry and hurt and frustrated. Which then means that people leave me out because they just see me as that person. and very rarely do people actually see beyond that. But i also know that my behaviour isn't normal. Well, it would be if i was teenager. I think i have suffered from arrested emotional development.

I had to be quite grownup as a teen(my sisterm being younger was treated differently) and because of the tensions at home i learned to be quiet and to fret. Now i don't have that anymore i think that my emotional side has gone back to the stage it was when that all started happening. I am gorwing slowly, but of course i have the problem that since i'm an adult and this is happening people do not have the same tolerance for it.

So instead of being supportive or teaching me how to act maturely, they ignore me or leave me. And the cycle continues because i have no-one to teach me.