I decided to email S. It isn't fair of him to guilt trip me, i cannot control the fact that he liked me, but he certainly could have been more feeling about the tim he chose. And now he says that he was heartbroken.

Seems like he didn't care that much that i had been attacked...well he shouldn't go around making me feel bad for that. It was not my fault.

I shouldn't be crying my heart out because someone makes me feel like i no longer deserve to meet someone nice because i turned them down (with good reason)

Having emailed him, i don't feel that it has been cathartic.

At least not yet. I need as few unhappinesses as possible, so that i can keep alive.